Well it's another day, and I'm holding up pretty damn well, if I do say so myself.
It's a bit liberating to realize that I'm taking control of my life again, and I'm not letting someone else pull the strings. I'm tired of that. I'm tired of letting someone who doesn't truly care about me, toy with me, and my emotions.
Short post today. That's all I've got.
Showing posts with label relationships. Show all posts
Showing posts with label relationships. Show all posts
Friday, December 24, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Day 1
Well today is day 1 on my own. I'm not going to put up with someone that wants to be verbally abusive and then try to use the excuse that they are just tired. WTF is that? I can tell you what it is. It's bullshit, and I'm done with it. Call yourself a grown woman, and then act like a child. It makes you a child.
I've resigned myself to just ignoring the problem, which in a sense is ignoring the person. I'm to nice of a person to let somebody walk all over me, and put up with it. That's over. I am in full on preservationist mode, and that is where I'm going to stay. Period.
If she wants to get her shit together, good for her, but I don't see it happening, or it would have already.
What does it all mean? Well pretty much, it means that for far to long, I've put up with far to much, and I'm over it. She has sucked the life out of me, and I'm finished.
I've resigned myself to just ignoring the problem, which in a sense is ignoring the person. I'm to nice of a person to let somebody walk all over me, and put up with it. That's over. I am in full on preservationist mode, and that is where I'm going to stay. Period.
If she wants to get her shit together, good for her, but I don't see it happening, or it would have already.
What does it all mean? Well pretty much, it means that for far to long, I've put up with far to much, and I'm over it. She has sucked the life out of me, and I'm finished.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Sometimes, you learn the hard way
Sometimes, you learn lessons the hard way. The people in life that love you the most, will hurt you the most. This isn't a lesson that I just learned, but one that I've been recently reminded of.
When asking my girlfriend where were going, I got the dreaded, " i don't want to talk about it right now". I'm not really sure if there is any way to slice that, other than negatively. What she isn't saying is killing me. At one moment, were making plans for next month, and another, were back at the I don't want to talk about it.
As you know, the relationship is complicated, at best. It's torrid with desire and passion, and it's empty, and going no where. What i once believed was an unbreakable bond, is now in doubt. A limbo that I don't want to be in. A turning point, I almost don't want to acknowledge, because I know what it means.
Looks like I just need to man up, and put an end to things. It's a point when going further, just means getting hurt more.
When asking my girlfriend where were going, I got the dreaded, " i don't want to talk about it right now". I'm not really sure if there is any way to slice that, other than negatively. What she isn't saying is killing me. At one moment, were making plans for next month, and another, were back at the I don't want to talk about it.
As you know, the relationship is complicated, at best. It's torrid with desire and passion, and it's empty, and going no where. What i once believed was an unbreakable bond, is now in doubt. A limbo that I don't want to be in. A turning point, I almost don't want to acknowledge, because I know what it means.
Looks like I just need to man up, and put an end to things. It's a point when going further, just means getting hurt more.
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